Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

On a more serious note

On a more serious note - lately I don't feel like I really have a direction or purpose in my life. I'm in my roles in life as a wife and mother, doing what I think needs to be done but is it really purpose driven? I have been thinking about this for years - what is my purpose? I wish I had a mission statement that focused on my exact purpose. I used to think if I had more money things would be better for me but I realize now that it doesn't have anything to do with money - that belief was a lie. Look at our Savior - he was born in a stable, he grew up in an average (income) home, he walked the earth teaching his gospel, I'm not sure if he really had any monetary value to call his own. He didn't need it. His mission statement, "For behold, this is my work and my glory - to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man." Moses 1:39. I realize that even Jesus Christ was not born into this world ready to fulfill his mission - he had to learn "grace for grace" just like the rest of us. Maybe I just feel like I'm so far behind of where I should be. I once heard a story about a father who was studying his scriptures, marking them and writing notes in the margin. His son was in the room with him playing with his toys and the father wasn't really paying attention to the boy. He noticed the boy got out his own scriptures and markers and started marking them. About a half hour passed and the father looked down at the boy and realized that his son had marked his own scriptures to look like his fathers. He had underlined the same sentences, used the same colors and even had attempted to write the same words in the margins. The boy looked up at his father and noticed that he was watching him and started to cry. The very proud father couldn't understand what would cause his son to cry and asked him what was wrong. The boy simply said "my lines are not as straight as yours." The father picked up the boy and told him "I don't care if your lines are straight, I'm so proud of you." The father knew that as long as his son would follow his example - his lines would become straighter with time.
Is it enough to follow the Saviors example and hope my lines will become straighter with time?